Today is the 2nd session and the topic is 'The Meaning of Life'.

I am so angry when I saw this stupid article in the Star saying that it is now okay for civil servant to hold part time jobs or side businesses! WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ALL ABOUT? These people are working 8-5 every bloody day from Monday to Friday and now you want them to spend the remaining hours to earn more money when you guys should be paying them enough for the more than 40 hours they spend at work every week? This is utterly disgusting. I told my bf that it is a very sad time to be in Malaysia now, and it will be worse soon. What can we do for our country, please let us know. Can someone out there help or are we gonna be left dying here? I did a very stupid thing the other day, I sent a msg on Facebook to Uncle Lim Kit Siang pleading him to do something to help us, and especially those with lower income. Okay, I was intoxicated at that time, but still...

I've started going for this church thingy with the bf. I think the church people are very emo. I cannot imagine telling people all my emo stories when I'm meeting them for the first time. Anyhow, I'm supposed to go there with an open heart and open mind, and that's what I'll do. I am there to get to know his faith. I know it matters a lot to him. It's nice that he is 'journeying' (a jargon) with me, but sometimes I feel that his presence will make me reluctant to ask those controversial questions that I always have at the back of my mind, like.... Why do some Catholics refer to God as 'Their' God, or 'My' God, or 'Your' God? Is the Catholic God, the Buddhist God and all the other Gods different? Or is there only one God?

But I am glad, that he wants to be there with me. After every session (2 so far) we will go makan or have a drink and talk about things. Like today after the session, the facilitator explained that normally they will end with a prayer and this is how the Catholics pray (show cross action explain bla bla) and say, okay let's pray. I felt really uncomfortable, as if I'm being forced to eat something that I'm not sure I will buy, and after eating they will make me pay for it. Something like that. I did it though, and thought about it a bit, and realised that the feelings I'm going through is probably similar to what he felt if he had to pray at my place with joss sticks and all. Confusion.. and he said.. feeling as if he's betraying his religion/ faith.

Okay... opening my heart... opening my mind....

All this aside, I think these weekly Tuesdays session will make us closer and allow us to get to know each other more. Last night he said that I must have been a naughty girl in school... laughing and giggling loudly, pretending to look cute and wanting to be the blue eyed girl. Har har

Going for a meeting now. More another day.