Growing up...

Yesterday I went to the bank to collect the check book for our joint current account. Semakin lama semakin serious it seems. Well, it is 'growing up' time so let's just move on! Still procrastinating on the whole renovation thing. Gonggong said 27th May was supposedly a good date to start renovation but since it's past that date, I guess we'll just have to choose another date. Gonggong moved into his new house on that date, so we have this small house warming thingy at his house. Nice, it was good to see the kids, but a bit awkward seeing the uncles and aunties because we don't hang with them often. It was okay, me and my social skills, har har.

There were many times that the teacher would scream out to some random classmates that makeup is not about putting some colours here there and game over. People who do that are not makeup artist, they are makeup applicator. I think I'm beginning to get that artistic part. It is all about correcting or perfecting the imperfections on one's face. I am working harder than ever, and the other day at ASQ some of those fellas told me I did a great job and yeah, I am proud. Today the sifu told me I've improved tremendously, so today is a good day. Although I still need to move faster so that I can go learn to do some hairdressing, especially for bridals. It doesn't have to be a glamourous thing, and it really isn't. I like the flexibility. Move on move on move on!

BTW, the jalan jalan cari makan bug seems to have bitten my entire family. We are all going in a bus to makan jia chui prawns (air tawar, suddenly can't think of what it's called in english) in Panchor, Johor. Very close to the place my dad and everyone else lived when they were small, in Lenga. They actually rebuilt a house on that piece of land and are calling in the ancestral home. Corner lot somemore, don't play play...



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Penang - Family Trip 2008

Just came back from family trip to Penang. It's been a makan makan makan trip with some sightseeing and a lot of family bonding. My dad was the one who organised the trip. He was the one who made the hotel booking, bedroom arrangement and even came out with the itinerary. My dad, the one who didn't even know how to use the computer 4 years ago, typing out the room arrangement and itinerary. Planning our entire vacation for us. Words cannot describe the way I felt when I saw the stuff he came out with on the computer. It may not be very much for him now, but I had this emo moment when I saw the printouts. I really love my dad, I know sometimes I do not tell him enough. No, I haven't hugged him in the past 10 years or so, no I haven't told him that I love him ever. Instead, today I told him, Pa, thank you for organising the trip. It is not the same as saying I love you, but it is a start.

I wish I could help you more Pa, in every aspect, but I am not made for it. I'm sorry I have failed and disappointed you so many times, but looking beyond all the expectations that we've set for one another, please know that I do care so much and yes, I love you very much.

Don't judge me for you do not know who I am.

I am very demotivated today. Sometimes I really don't understand how can someone judge you so easily when they don't have full knowledge of your entire life and you you you. I was told not to take it personally, but sometimes I wish that she is more understanding. I've got a lot of stuff going on in my life but that doesn't mean that I place less importance on any of it. Every part is important to me, and I'm trying to make everything work at the same time.

After thinking about it while driving back home, I've decided that it's my life as it has always been, and no one can measure my level of passion, except for me. I will give the best that I can to meet the goals that I've set. Not some goal that some other people have set for me. I got out from the rat race because I'm tired of it, and I am not about to be plunged into another one against my will.

I know what I'm doing, and I am on the right path to be where I want to. At least I'm still on the right track at the moment.

Been working on a research that will lead to something big, hopefully. I will make it work. I will make it work. I will make it work.

Widen the gap please thank you.

All sort of praises are sung for technology, internet, bla bla but I tell you sometimes having easy access to all this information are just... way overwhelming. Sometimes it's better to not know about certain things, and some things are better left undisturbed. With stupid internet, that invisible string that link everyone together is gaining shape and losing the length and I DON'T LIKE THAT.

I prefer to remain in an ignorant bliss. I can get myself away from unpleasant situation and I will, because I have done it before and I can do it again. I know I have a choice.

/emo off

This weekend my family (all 40 of us) will be going down to Pg. I can't wait to makan nonstop... and makan and makan and makan. Will drop by Ipoh for breakfast, but no chicken rice so early in the morning. Wondering where else is good to makan in Ipoh.

Just did another ASQ photoshoot today. The kids kinda grow on you. After a while they seem quite decent. Maybe it's just the maternal side in me showing, haha. 5 of them will be going to some singing competition reality show in Taiwan... all expenses paid... so lucky... I told them that they cannot miss going to the night market. It is zeee bombb I miss Taiwan I wanna go again... So yah, about a month before they start again. Then the elimination will continue again. *sigh* Somehow this attachment is inevitable I think. It's in my nature to get emotionally attached to the things I do or experience.

Sighs sigh sighs

I noticed that the hair plucking comes back when I'm stressed out. I haven't done so for the longest time since I got the short haircut. In fact I thought that trich can be 'cured' by having short hair, but apparently not.

Need 60k in 1 years time. Any fast money making scheme?

It is a Friday. I think I'll put on some nice makeup and go out. It's the Tiesto weekend but don't think will be going. Maybe tomorrow. Really wanna go before n turns 3. But if he's coming back next year, then not going this year is fine. Otherwise must go, cos I don't want to go see him lugging my kids if he comes back in 5 years time.

Parents meeting parents dinner postponed because everywhere is fully booked as this weekend is mother's day. I haven't gotten anything for mom yet. But the other day got free pink teddy bear from The Ship. A bit cheap la... Dunno what to get for mom la, sighs.

Photoshoot for ASQ Top 10 next week. 5 girls and 5 guys. Rather, 5 guys, 1 'guy' and 4 girls. Shouldn't be a prob.

ASQ

It is now 7 am and I'm dead tired but am just gonna note down some stuff that I do not want to forget.

1. Time and tide wait for no man. Move it move it.

2. I changed my mind about the guy who bugged me at Astro Star Quest. Usually he seemed overly confident and showy, but today he mellowed down a lot from the pressure. He seemed almost depressed. It is now towards the middle of the show. In the earlier recordings, the contestants were happy, all hyped up and singing everywhere all the time. Now that nearly half the contestants have been eliminated they seem somewhat more grounded. Today it was quiet with hardly any singing around backstage. In someways it was almost as if everyone was mourning with sorrow. I guess making new friends, living with them and then having to deal with your friends being eliminated shows you a part of that grown up life, fast forward. I almost felt sorry for them, but am glad that they are more mature and ready for life's challenges now. Somehow Asian reality shows are different from Western ones. The Western reality shows contestants cheer for joy when the others are eliminated. They want to get others eliminated. In Asian reality show they cry when their fellow contestants get eliminated. When they give their goodbye speech they wish others success.

Budget constraints

need to stick to budget need to stick to budget...

BUT I WANT A BATHTUB..... AND SOLID WOODEN FLOOR, AND 6 AIR CONDS...

check out this informative article about Jacuzzi. Yes the Jacuzzi, the Panadol of paracetemol, the Maggi mee of instant noodles..

it's sad when you can only have 3 airconds instead of 6.

:/